music... again

I'd mentioned before that I was planning on posting some music here. I haven't. I know that all of my avid and faithful readers were waiting patiently for it, but I'm not ready. Let me explain...

I don't have much free time. Work all day, come home, dinner, Joel time, sleep. Next, I'm really insecure. On one hand, I've heard worse than me. On the other hand, I've also heard way better. I can carry a tune, but I tend to be pitchy (flat or sharp, depending on my mood, I guess). I also don't really play an instrument, so I dint feel like a real musician. I just feel like a karaoke singer. See, I loved music once upon a time. I'd made an appreciation for music a criteria for the man I'd marry. Well, I got what I asked for... and then some. Joel goes to school for, loves, and appreciates music. His high level of musical knowledge and understanding sometimes make me feel inadequate. This is in no way his fault; it's really all in my head, and I know it, but I still feel that way.
Another reason that I'm reluctant to post music is that I don't like being all "look at me! look at me!" We'll see--maybe someday. Until then, enjoy the silence.